I'm so worried about Owen

I'm so worried about Owen.  He just doesn't seem to be getting any better.  He's my sweet baby boy, and I really want him at home.  I miss him so much.  They are still talking about sending him to Duke University to get a preeminent immunologist to see him.  I don't want my baby that far away from me. 
I do think that I need help.  I'm having flashbacks to when I had to leave Evan at Scottish Rite. That was a nightmare.  This isn't as bad as that was.  At least now I can see Owen whenever I choose to.  I just can't always choose to.  I have Evan and Grant to take care of.   See how sweet they are on the first day of school.  Of course that was nearly 2 months ago. And lately, they have not been quite so sweet. 

Any way, if anyone is reading this, I just wanted to talk to you.